decidedly unread and 50% water

June 16, 2008 Candace Morris 4 Comments is not getting the reading it needs.

in other musings,

spring is in the air. or, summer. i don't know. i just know that i am in love with joel again...all over again. it's lovely and feels as light as spring.

it was reinforced by my conversation with my sister teresa last night. she told me about one of the most beautiful moments of her life, and i am going to steal it and share it because it's really stunning.

her close friend's brother just passed away, and she attended the funeral. they scattered the ashes in the ocean by san diego, but this was no casting of ashes over a boat. instead the family asked any/everyone who felt comfortable to come swim and scatter. teresa donned a wet suit and paddled out to the sea where she belongs. (my sister is made of 80% water and 20% fire. her big eyes glisten with the dewy elements of her being.)

she laid back and floated for 2-3 minutes of solitude and found within herself the desire to be laid to rest at sea when the time comes. this realization of her own inevitability of death brought a new desire to live into her soul.

picturing my teresa floating in the ocean brings the 50% water of which i am made crashing to my own eyes. she was lighter, refreshed, carried by the sea in all it's tumult and solidarity. she was at home.

after this experience, she found within her a rebirth of love for her own dear husband. the taste of mortality has sparked something in their marriage, and the sharing of it has sparked something in mine.

her happiness brings me a taste of mine.

“To suspect your own mortality is to know the beginning of terror, to learn irrefutably that you are mortal is to know the end of terror.” Frank Herbert

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