June 19, 2011 Candace Morris 5 Comments

Let's take a moment, shall we?

I woke up this morning confused and frustrated from a conversation last night with my parents over some long-standing theological and psychological disagreements.  They distrust psychology; I distrust church.  Where does that leave us?  I have no idea.  It ended well, and we are all still laughing and loving each other, but I needed a moment this morning to reconnect with myself and understand my own process. My therapist calls it "self-soothing."

Any one else out there struggle with an adult relationship with your folks? I doubt I'm the only one. The point of relationships isn't to always be at peace and in agreement.  The point is to be IN the relationship - tears, yelling, hugs, and all.  Just like the point of life isn't to ARRIVE at conclusions as much as it is to continue the journey.

Joel took my parents to church this morning, and I've spent the last two hours with my latte and journal, reentering my soul, assuring myself to trust the work I've done to arrive where I am (which I believe to have been directed by an all-knowing other), and remembering my core values.  It may not be my parents values, but they still love me and I am proud of myself for articulating that to them with courage.  I've tried it their way and now I need to try it my way.  Isn't that the nature of a child relating to its parents?  We must make our own way and at the end of our lives, they will not be around to answer to.  It's just you and the universe, kid.

Today, I've reached no conclusions save this:
Solitude is sacred.  The words we say to ourselves in solitude are perhaps the most important words we will utter in the entire day.  How we feel about ourselves directly impacts how we feel about others.  We cannot intrinsically distrust ourselves and expect others to find us trustworthy.

You all deserve a moment alone to reconnect to who you are.

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